My job is online and my meetings are online. My wife and I have been carrying on a private Zoom meeting every night at 7. It’s private in that it isn’t published anywhere, but we have asked everyone who comes to spread the word and invite anyone with a desire to stop drinking. There are usually four, five or six of us. It makes for some deep conversation, I think, deeper than happens at face to face meetings. Although I guess in this current situation, face to face meetings would be pretty intense.
I have noticed, and the group has remarked, how these circumstances make for lots of judgements on my part. We have heard of face to face meetings that are still meeting and we judge them. Someone works in Target and we judge the people shopping there for non-essentials. I judge someone who comes to the meeting but doesn’t use their camera and mutes their microphone. Are they observing? Having us go on in the background?
But those are the buzzes of lesser character defects and they do not dominate my current AA experience. The larger character defects of fear, anxiety, worry, gluttony – those give me more trouble and still I have a plan to work on them, a plan I’m familiar with that has enabled me to lessen them to an outstanding degree.