This month I am 35 years sober, 57 years old. I’ve been at my same place of employment for 21 years, and my work partner of 20 years has told me she’ll retire in July. I had asked my supervisor what his plans were for me after that happens, and he told me he plans that I should supervise alone.
Could I tell the clients and their loved-ones that I’ve done this for 30 years just to chicken out at the end?
Most likely I’ll try it, and give it a year or six months to see if I can handle it. It feels terribly frightening to think of doing it without the support of my partnership. So many discussions I have with people around this issue center one what I want, what I like, what I enjoy. And I know I need a certain amount of happiness to do a decent job. But I think AA has taught me to enjoy being useful. To always be grateful. To do what God would have me do, not what I want, like, or enjoy. Didn’t doing what I wanted to do get me to the threshold of 35 years of sobriety?