Therefore, we who are alcoholics can consider ourselves fortunate indeed. Each of us has had his own near-fatal encounter with the juggernaut of self-will, and has suffered enough under its weight to be willing to look for something better. So it is by circumstance rather than by any virtue that we have been driven to A.A., have admitted defeat, have acquired the rudiments of faith, and now want to make a decision to turn our will and our lives over to a Higher Power.
Completely true for me. We all come to AA at different times, having suffered a little or a lot, for a long time or a short time. Around my meetings these days people like to talk about “the gift of desperation.” We acknowledge that we had to be faced no other hope of any other solution before we begin to accept AA and recover. So, not because we are good people or being especially looked over by angels (my own opinion).
Now, can I today admit that I have been defeated by self-will in matters that don’t take on the seriousness and urgency of alcoholic drinking?