Plumb Disgusted with Religion (Step Two continued)

Another crowd of A.A.’s says:  We were plumb disgusted with religion and all its works.  The Bible, we said, was full of nonsense; we could cite it chapter and verse, and we couldn’t see the Beatitudes for the ‘begats.’  In spots its morality was impossibly good; in others it seemed impossibly bad.  But it was the morality of the religionists themselves that really got us down.  We gloated over the hypocrisy, bigotry, and crushing self-righteousness that clung to so many ‘believers’ even in their Sunday best.  How we loved to shout the damaging fact that millions of the ‘good men of religion’ were still killing one another off in the name of God.  This all meant, of course, that we had substituted negative for positive thinking.  After we came to A.A., we had to recognize that this trait had been an ego-feeding proposition.  In belaboring the sins of some religious people, we could feel superior to all of them.  Moreover, we could avoid looking at some of our own shortcomings.  Self-righteousness, the very thing that we had contemptuously condemned in others, was our undoing, so far as faith was concerned.  But finally, driven to A.A., we learned better.

This paragraph describes my attitude to some degree.  I was only 16 when I first went to AA, and I was only just past being confirmed in the Lutheran church against my will.  The hypocrisy of that drove me away far and fast.  Yes, I could see that the Bible and the people were full of nonsense.

I didn’t spend too much time feeling superior to them, and I’m grateful that pretty quickly I understood the AA concept that these people I was criticizing were some of the best and brightest in the world, ever.

I still have a huge problem with the “book of rules” that comes with most religions.  I really don’t understand how some people can go along with organized religion.  Say a creed, for example, and profess to believe every part of it.  I just don’t get it.  Good thing for me I don’t have to get it, and I can attend AA with those church people and with atheists and everyone in between, and we can all keep each other sober, sharing our faith, whatever that may be.


2 thoughts on “Plumb Disgusted with Religion (Step Two continued)

  1. Thanks for this – I’ve been thinking about Step 2 a lot. Wondering if it’s possible that “God as I understand God” might be able to expand as my recovery expands. I’m hampered by creepy ways in which this expansion feels like it might require a certain unwelcome overlap with the God-concept the Christian hypocrites in my life seem to hold.

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