I wrote last July about triggers, and what I was really thinking about are triggers to worry. For me, I don’t know that resentment is the number one offender. I spend far more self-destructive time worrying than I do being resentful.
Wait to worry is sometimes a good way for me to remember that most of what I worry about doesn’t happen. A diagnosis, for example, while the tests are going on. I can worry about the terrible disease once I know that it’s truly there. There will be time enough. I can worry about how much trouble my kids are in once they are in it. I can worry about politics and pollution, my car and my dog when I know there’s something to worry about.
Which, of course, there never is. Because worry (and fear) are destructive and they make everything worse, never better. They make me worse and less effective than I can be when I’m calm and accepting.
Right now I’m worried about work tomorrow. It’s usually the same thing I worry about, being short-staffed. For several years now we’ve been well staffed because of the administrators, which is a very very good thing. Now a series of events have made us short-staffed until we can hire some new people, which takes time.
And it’s all just part of it. Worrying about it tonight will not make tomorrow any better, and it will surely lower the quality of tonight. And it’s not justified, either. There is no staff shortage so severe that we don’t get through the day. I have never suffered in a short situation to such a degree that I lost my ability to cope. I may be the only administrator at work tomorrow, and my attitude will surely affect the quality of the day (to quote Thoreau).