Recently I read something that said, sort of, that “turning it over” is working steps four through twelve. I really need to think about that more deeply.
Usually what I mean by “turning it over” is that I’ll stop trying to influence an outcome, maybe by arguing a point or presenting more evidence. Or that I’ll mentally try to stop rebelling against some awful truth that I can’t accept.
But I really like this new definition much better. My will and my life are not momentary, specific things. My will is constant and so is my life. I guess I try to live in accordance with what I think a higher power wants. Many good habits are deeply ingrained in me (and many bad ones as well). And the “work” I do on myself as I strive to get better goes on purposefully and also unconsciously.
But that all seems so nebulous. Inventory, amends, prayer and good works – maybe it is the doing of these things that is the act of turning it over.