I have a bit of a question and a wondering. The 12th Step says, “Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps.” But I also understand the spiritual awakening to be that time when the fortunate alcoholic becomes ready and able to surrender. And I know that a spiritual awakening can happen when someone has worked all the steps, or some of them, or none of them. Finally I wonder about Bill W’s hospital, “help me God” moment.
To me at this moment, it means a broad change of character. I liked and admired good people doing good things, but I was completely unable to join them. It’s a nice word, awakening, to apply to a change in my drunken, drugged, comatose state.