Before I leave that completely, I want to record that I did wonder what the drinks felt like to those people. This is not a normal mental activity for me. I think I was in such distress, my mind went everywhere it shouldn’t and around and back again. I wondered if they felt good, relaxed, silly, hot. I envied (briefly) their ability to take a mind and mood altering drug. It was similar to watching a naturally thin person have a vanilla milk shake. Similar, but not the same.
Alcohol and I have no argument. We haven’t for a very long time. If I maintain my spiritual condition, we never will again.