A new happiness.
It surely is new. I cannot remember what I considered to be happiness when I was drinking. I was a depressed drunk yet unable to stop.
What’s on my mind these days regarding a new happiness? Honestly today, on this very day, I’m not very happy. I have a problem with a personal relationship that is getting me down. At times I think I’m very weak and that I won’t be able to handle a very big disappointment or tragedy, like something awful happening to one of my kids. I know that thinking about such things is a total waste of time. I pay attention to the examples set by people who have lived through something like that. Sometimes I think I’m too dependent, too codependent, but how can we have relationships without the risk of being devastated?