Living on the Sixth Step
February 9, 2008
My current best idea of how to begin is to begin on the sixth step.
Became entirely ready to have God remove these defects of character.
These defects of character being those that were listed and shared during the fourth and fifth steps. For me, those took place over ten years ago, and over five years ago the time before that. The first time I did the fourth and fifth steps I continued on down through the rest. The second time I didn’t. So as I approach, I think, the third time, it struck me that it may be best to first revisit six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, one, two and three.
It’s already a huge challenge to write and try not to correct and edit and make it better. But writing like that probably wouldn’t get me far, so I’m going to try to let that go right now. And I do mean now.
February 9, 2008 at 1:30 am
Have you been relieved of all of those defects? Have they been removed? I have found that I just get better, I can’t say any has been totally removed. What about you? What about that?
I also find that “more is being revealed,” and that I become aware of more defects even without necessarily doing another fourth and fifth. Maybe that comes from working the rest of the steps….
February 10, 2008 at 10:55 pm
Your questions sound a bit challenging, and I’m not sure if they are meant for me or for the universal you. Also the last sentence seems to say to me that I must not be working the rest of the steps. I could be wrong there.
How I will respond to your response is to say that of course, more is revealed. One thing that may be revealed to you is that there is value in redoing the steps formally after many years have passed. So there.
February 19, 2008 at 1:12 am
I didn’t mean for my questions to be challenging, rather to offer something for us to ponder, that’s all.
As far as my comment that, “I also find that “more is being revealed,” and that I become aware of more defects even without necessarily doing another fourth and fifth. Maybe that comes from working the rest of the steps…,” I was really talking about myself.
I have recently been shown a huge defect of my own, and I’ve seen it come to my consciousness as I’ve continued working the steps. It is definitely something I need to work on, because I’m really starting to get on my own nerves!
I’m also wondering tonight why you took all of my comments so personally? Maybe there’s something there….